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	last night again we didn't talk it's been 17 years since i quit smoking but when i think too much and work too hard, i still pat my pockets for a pack of cigarettes last night instead i went for a walk when i got tired of drinking cold coffee to keep myself awake and the smell of the star jasmine reminded me of what you'd said about dusk and dead babies and how we used to laugh at how unhip it is for a woman to be in touch with her masculine side but age takes care of that for you your gender slowly slipping away yesterday someone asked me if i'd considered bleaching my upper lip to match my shoulder length hair and i turned towards you to explain to see if any of this made sense so. yes. i remain uncured of the bad habit of reaching for things that won't be there

last night again we didn't talk